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Danielle - Bonnie
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Tuesday, January 3, 2012

2012 - Making it Yours!

Happy New Year to you, Danielle here. I hope that you all had a wonderful 2011...even if you didn't, it's OK. All of that stuff is in the past, even our victories are in the past.  So now is the time to start making changes to get to a better you. That is my goal overall really...I want to be the best me that I can be. That means every aspect of my life needs a good deep cleaning. I am working on myself daily. I have to remind myself that I am not my past, I am not my parents, I am not any of that. I am what I want to be. I am striving to be a better; mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend, and human being. In fact, I just a had an issue dealing with being a better mother. I almost shooed my son away so that I could get back to typing here. Then I thought to myself that I should listen to his tale. He had been outside playing and he was imagining that he was in Super Mario World...it was a very cute story. I'm glad that I let him tell it to me...it's not like I was putting anything of importance on hold. ;)

I realized something a while back, but I never wrote about. I guess I was waiting for the right time...and I suppose that time is now. My battle with my weight has been an ongoing process. I never loved or really liked my body. I was never really healthy (I touched on this in other posts) and I never really cared enough to change that about myself. There were times that I got determined to get fit, toned and healthy. Those attempts failed...over and over and over again. I quickly lost my self control or will power... I quit exercising and I quit caring about what I ate. After many years of living like that and then getting pregnant and gaining 50-60lbs with each pregnancy...I was really not liking my body. But I also wasn't ready to do anything about it. For me, I had to get the rest of my life on track. My husband and I have gone through some really...well...let's just say, awful times. We spent 6 years hating to love each other. We did everything that we could to end our marriage, but for some reason we just couldn't quit the other (yeah, that sounds way too much like a movie about a mountain and cowboys...but it suits the situation). We don't know why we stuck it out, but we do know now that we are so happy that we did. Our lives have taken a drastic 180 since we both decided to work on our relationship with God. We decided to give up the control, all we had done with it was make a very sad and angry home. So, it was pretty clear that we had no reason to think that we could do better than God can. We found an amazing church (www.cypressfellowship.org) and let me tell you...my life has meaning now. I have a purpose now. I have a reason to wake up happy every day. I can truly say that now my  "bad" times are what my "good" times used to be. So back to why I wanted to write about this...once my life started to gain balance (thank you, Lord), everything else became a little bit easier. I know that I am growing and changing on the inside and on the outside...and I am so thankful to be where I am now in my life. It only gives me joy, because I know there are better things in store for me and my family.

And now to the point --- My health/fitness goals for 2012:
- run a mile without stopping
- run a 5K
- run "Run 4 Your Life" (5K zombie obstacle course)
- bike 500+ miles this year
- weigh 150lbs or less
- achieve a 4 pack (after babies, I doubt a 6 pack is accomplish-able)
- cook a new pescatarian dish a week
- spend more time with my children doing active things

I also have decided to not weigh myself more than once a week. The number on that evil thing also known as a scale, isn't my focus now. I want to really increase my muscle mass and then get shredded. As I am accomplishing that, I hope to lose those last 7-9lbs. If not...I won't complain too much. I am now wearing a size 6 jeans. I have never in my life worn that size before. I don't see that changing...not at all.

I am heading to the gym tonight to lift. I even have a routine all worked out...goooo me! The hubster and I had the opportunity to go to the gym together and he was able to school me on how to use some of the free weights and other scary looking machines. I was actually using the bench press the other day...and the real leg press..(insert the eeeewws and the aaahhs here). I'm excited to go down a totally new and different road, I am putting myself way out of my comfort zone. It's a bit scary, a bit exciting, a bit exhilarating. 

Whelp, that's all I have for the day. Continue to strive ever forward. You CAN do it and you ARE worth it! 2012 is going to be covered in awesome sauce. 

P.S. I am working on the layout and trying to figure out the "look" I want it to have. Something totally went haywire on the old blog. I'm not sure if there was an update and my code no longer worked or what. But sorry about that (if anyone even noticed). I'm out, like a brussel sprout.

2 comments:

Ben said...

Those are great goals babe. I know I have said this before but you are an inspiration to so many people including myself. I love you and keep up the great work

ILBCNU10 said...

I will leave the broke back comment alone :)

I'm in on the 5k with ya...name the time and place!

On the PS I noticed and it drove me bonkers trying to read it.

J